and i wish....

again, i come back to this blog..

facebook got alot of friends, everytime i tried to write down my feeling...how many ppl will understand?? so better come back to this blog- the blog that i feel really like my diary.

these days, life seems quite tough to me. I still cant accept the failure..and i feel so lonely...everytime problems come, only me, only me face with this

my bf is living far away from me..that's y sometimes i feel need him so much, just need him online, just a short chat..just wana c him on wc, then at least i still feel that someone is with me at that time

But he was busy..he was always so busy when i need him the most.

everytime chat w him, tell him a story, i just wana him to cheer me up, just wana hear jia you,but the more i say, he just feel that i am so different, i am so weird, i am so hard to understand..

I know that i shouldnt blame on him, coz it is my fault...i cant expect that he throws all his work then come to me..

I know i bother him alot, i am alr 22 yrs old, sometimes i still act like a kid, my problem, i cant put in on someone else..

but i wish so much that he could understand how much i need him sometimes.