what is life?

when i was a child, i thought that life is a bed of roses, life is always fair, if u r good, ppl will be good to u, u will get all best things from life...but now...i realize that life is not bed of roses...unfair...i am 19 year old, is it so early to realise that.?..i wish i could think life as i did when i was a child...but i cant now...these days,  all my blogs were so sad...i made my friends  worried about me... so sorry...

I promised myself that i will post happy blog, stop suck ....but sorry you guys, now i am not so happy again...i tried to hard...but...i dun wanna cry..no...exactly my tears dun come out...even i want.

I knew that whatever happens, however the life is....i have to continue to live, to study and to make ppl who i love happy....but please god, can u just give me hardness one by one, pls..if u give me many ones at the same time, i cant overcome....

i did something wrong

these days, i got mad..i did something, i dunno it is wrong or right...At that time, i thought it is right, i was so happy when i did it but now....i think it is damn wrong...oh God, kill me better...my eyes cant see anything happily now...Now , i regret, i wish time comes back, i wouldnt do it..how come i am so stupid..My mom teaches me so many time wat should  do and wat shouldnt...i never got it...still did  stupid thing, no thinking ...I am 19 alr...but i am suck, always make my parents worry about me...no escape now.I did it, it made me happy but for sure, my parents will be so sad if they know wat i did...To me , my parents always right and ...everything they did just try to make me happy ....so now...surely, i am damn wrong.

Of course, it is not the first time i made mistake, but everytime, i got my mom, even terrible mistake, she will solve them for me..., i used to be so angry with her, i thought how come she didnt understand me,she always forced me, cant do this one , cant do that one..But now, i wish i got her now, in here, and tell me wat should i do now..how come i overcome this...Come and , tell me,please...

I have stayed in here 8 months alr, how come still suck..Mom, u come and take me home...nothing is happy in here...sometimes i can control my emotion,i try to tell to myself come on , just 2 years ....not too long, i can do it...but sometimes, i cant...i really cant ...

my pictures..hehehe..

here r me and my coolie family:)

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Saturday November 18, 2006 - 12:21am (SGT)

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what is true love?

I got a friend, she is not so beautiful, not so clever.Even she didnt use to know how to do anything.But maybe she is quite funny so many guys love her.Actually, she doesnt believe love.She thinks love just make ppl become selfish, sad..So, even, there is one perfect guy loves her too much, he can do everything for her...she still refuses him.

And one day, one guy came to her life and changed her life.She didnt know how come she fell in love....He came when her heart was blue...but sometimes, she wonders is it love?is he her boyfriend?sometimes she thinks it is but sometimes...., maybe it is the way he chose to love her.

He is really so cute, like children, so maybe this is the reason why sometimes he cant realize her feelings....He cant realize when she is sad, when she need him by her side...She can tell him about her happiness but she cant tell him about her sadness. She is very sad about this but for sure, he didnt know that.How come??anyway, he had a important place in her heart...She is really so happy when she got him...

My birthday's pictures

wow..wow..cool birthday....thax to my dear all friend:P

my heart is blue now

i dun know what wrong w me to today. I fell so sad now.In Singapore, sometimes at night, i feel so lonely and miss my family too much.Maybe coz i just started to my new term,dun hv too much homework,it gave me  time to think...today is suck.I got up at 2 pm, ate lunch, and then nothing to do, slept again, played computer, ate dinner, and now....dunno wat to doI got so many cool friends in here, they r all so kind of me, but sometimes, i feel that i got no friend, what the hell???

I got coolie family in here, got cool friends, my study is not bad, i am more independent now, i did something which i never did  before when i was in VN.For sure, my mom will be so suprise about me now.I am not a princess like i was in VN anymore, didnt do anything.Singapore gave me more things than it took from me...so how come sometimes i  am still so sad.

In VN, if i am sad, i will cry too much and after feeling better.Actually, i am very easy to cry,but now....i wish i can cry....my tear doesnt come out so long time alr.

ok, u r suck, Ngoc!

my birthday!!!!!:)

wow, i had cool party with my friends in Singapore.Actually, i was a little sad coz i cant celebrate my birthday with my family( that is the first time i cant) but my friends made me so happy in my bithday. We made barbecue, ate together, played together and i got presents . I also got many wishes from my family, my friends in Vietnam.

Thax all of u for coming to my birthday and giving me a cool timeEspecially, thax to Ha and Tuan so much.You helped me so many things to prepare for my birthday...oh no...our birthday.We went to supermarket together ( even we were so tired, right? hahha...slept so late at that night and had to wake u early),Ha was kicked out from her bed,still couldnt wake up ahhaha.But after 3 times, she could, wow...cool friendWe bought so many things so....so heavy and it rained...After that we prepared the food. Because Tuan and Ha r the professional cooks so..it just took us 2 hours...Thax u, thax u hahaha.....you r really my coolest friends...even how come everytime u always call me bad girl huhuhuBut ppl say u call me bad girl that means i am a cool girl in ur heart..hahha of course i believe it lah

My birthday is over , now i am 19 years old alr...wow.wow,..

 

 

My dear friend, i love u, too!!!!!!^___^

wow,cant imagine how happy i am now.U r so sweet, my closest friend.Now at 4.30 am alr and today is my birthday...I sit here and think about u, think about how come i got the cool friend like u and the special day 5 years ago, we met together. It is not only ur lucky day, but also my luckiest dayThax god to give u to me....thax god so much!!!

Five years ago, i remembered the first time i met u and  our lecture let us to sit w the same table.( so should thank to our lecture )..haha actually, i am talkative girl so i started to talk to u quickly and we became friend.For me, u r so special, u always do something that ppl cant even think about this for me.Even in high school, i am quite funny  but i didnt have many friends or exaclly, i got friends but they r ....how to say...i dunno, maybe they r just my friends, nothing is special, nothing is impressive....can i say actually, i just got u who always care for me everytime i need...u  r always by my side, helped me and....wow, i cant  depict  how kind u areU made my three years in high school were so so so happy and sweet, u gave my cool memories

In my heart, u r my perfect friend, i never feel that our friendship had some problems or something made me sad.Did u feel like this??When , my dear, how come u didnt know?Because i am talkative, i got so many friends but u r so different from them. U look like so quiet but hahaah..just i know, actually, u r so talkative and funny w the ppl u thought that they r ur good friends,right?(of course i am right, i sat the same table w u for 3 years alr)And u  always had many great ideas, i think no ppl can reach them...hahhaha..just u.Maybe u dunno but all ur presents u gave me in my birthdays are the coolest i've got. I got friends, in my birthdays , they gave me so many presents which are so expensive or so beautiful but comparing with ur presents...how to say....I kept ur presents so carefully hahaha.

Ok, Let i tell u some presents which u gave me. U remember the note book that u gave me, it was simple present if it would not have ur drawing inside, wow cooland another one was  the painting by sand which was made by u...u didnt know how happy i was when i received it. Ppl just gave me the present they bought and thought that it is useful for me...I thank for their presents..but with ur presents, it made me emotional, deeply in my heart.Just a simple reason, coz u know me, understand me, so u know what i want, right??

And today, u continue to make me suprise hahha.by ur present. Even we live far from each other now and this is the first time i celebrate my birthday without u...so sad...huhuhubut ur present....made me so emotional...even made my cry now.U said u started to write ur blog coz of me..it is  ur present to give me and u posted ur first blog about me...How come u r so kind of me, my dear?love u so much

For ur failure, dun be sad, my dear. U r greatest ppl i've knownI know failure just made u r more brave...nothing can stop u,my dear.Whatever happens, i am always by ur side, see u r happy w ur success and sad w ur failure.I know u have enough brave to overcome every hardness....believe ur close friend lah..,,happy...happy

i proud of u, love u and miss u so much....i dunno what should i say now...no word can descrise our friendship...Something just u can do for me, must be u, no one esle.Our friendship will be forever and forever..... 

wow, 6.00am alr hahahha ur present made me cant sleep tonight,ok my dear, i am really so happy to have friend like u, u have a deeply part in my heart, i never forget u , never forget what u did for me...Thax u for everything. Thax God(again) to give u to me.U r really a special present from God in my life!!!!

I wanna go back VN to see u now but i cant huhuhuhuok, no choice lahwait for me until Christmas, i will go back and see u.We will have a nice time....see u soon, my dear

Entry for November 07, 2006

wat time is it now?wow, 3.00 already. I just read my friend's blog..hic...hic about Mom, and now i miss my Mom so much. These days, i rarely called my Mom, she is so busy now and me,too. I had to do my exams so..To read my friend's blog is to make my remember the first day i've come to Singapore, it is the most terrible day in my life until nowWhen i just came, my friend took me go around Singapore, ate something and my Dad called me, i....cried so much, at that time i just wanted to go back  to my country, hug my mom,my dad and my brother and say"i dun wanna go to singapore, dun send me to singapore.." .I didnt cry when my parents said good bye to me in the airport, i tried my best to make them dun worry about me, but that night, i cried too much...and felt so...scarely. I knew, from that time, i dun have my mom's care anymore, i should be independent which i never can reach before.

I dunno wat's wrong with me now...sometimes, i feel so lonely and sad in Singapore. I thought if i were in Vietnam, i would talk to my Mom everything which made me unhappy...but now, in here, nobody can make me tell my stories to them.it didn't mean i dun like my friends or dun trust them...they r so  nice and kind of me but...maybe somthing just my mom can do...must be my mom, no one else.

Reading my friend's blog, he said " never say "i love u" to his mom" and i am so sad to realize that i am,too.Even i love her too much, how come i never say that to her.She is the person who i love most in my life...forever..Mom, in december, when i go home, i will hug u and say " u know, I LOVE U so much"

Wow, i hate my friend, how come he wrote like this and made me miss my mom too much huhuhu...cant study anymore now,ok take a nice sleep......good nite my dear mom