silent night!

now 1.12am..and i still cant sleep. 1 week alr, i really cant sleep before 5am.
I support to study for my exam now but seem like i cant do it no matter how hard i try. And finally, one more time, i come to this blog coz my yahoo blog is too popular and i dun wana hear any comment from my friends. Sometimes, keeping quiet is more worthy.
have u ever loved someone that dun love u as u do? I cant believe that someday m in this situation. For him, I am always the second choice.He did everything he never think of me first and he always lied me..until now, when i stay in the very last days in singapore.
I dun regret coz i love him, I also dun understand myself why i need to get hurt like that. But love always got no reason. I miss his voice, miss his hug, miss his smile..I look everywhere got our memories..I cant believe i need to stay that terrible in my last 2 weeks in sing. I cling every day to stay w him but he just simply think that m not worth for him anymore coz finally i will leave sing soon.
If he dun luv me, why he did alot of things then now make me in that hurt??I know he is online..bt he never ask me even this sentence "how r u?", is it him 1 week before when he still hugged me w his arms?
I know we cant be together in the future?but I wish i could only be ur friend, can chat w u, ask how life going..it is enough for me..why only this small thing, u still cant do for me?
luv makes people stupid and if i can, i wish i was a stupid girl w u by my side..

just simly cat stop crying..one more time, i wipe my tears in the silent night.It hurts