symathies

almost 3am now and I should focus on studying for my IB exam tmr but I really cant..
I cant deny that I am screwed up now..I feel that I am very unlucky girl and why I need to get that hurt..
21 years old, I got more things to do than feeling hurt abt luv but well, I just cant release myself from this pain.
1 more night, with tears, with doing crazy things, with full of stupid thinking..with missing someone so much. ..
and by chance, I came to one blog then two then three..and my tears come out again..

They are the same age with me or even most of them are younger than me..And what they wish now just one more minute to live in this life..
They hurt but they keep smiling, keep helping others ppl as much as they can..
They hurt but they never speak it out..coz they love their parents..
And some of them are leaving this life..I saw their picture.s.I dun feel scary as I did when I what ghost movie, I just feel so sorry for them..and I feel hurt deeply in my heart

these blogs really touch my heart..

And I feel ashame..why I just stuck in this feeling..crying everyday and live such a useless girl?
I should know that I am luckier than a lot of people and i should thank God for that

living more meaningful..

God, if u can listen to me, pls give them a chance to live happily, pls put them back to their family, pls help them discover this wonderful life..

They are too young to get this hurt..praying for them from my heart

p/s: I pass to Thúy's blog whose passed away coz of cancer..and some young bloggers who leave this life..